WARNING IT MIGHT NOT ALL MAKE SENSE, I HAVE HAD A FEW DRINKS..

I don't like to write long drawn out things so I will just do mu best to explain.

Well I have been thinking for quite some time now that I want to move and by move I mean really just pack up and go far far away. It isn't caused by anything except that I need a change. I'm 22 and almost done with school, I live in a kinda small town even though I am close to NYC and the city of Albany so it's not small town syndrome. to be honest I don't know why I want to move.

I guess I don't feel a strong connection to anyone in my life right now. Don't get me wrong I love my family and my mom means the world to me (single parent all of my life) even though lately I cant stand to be around her. I just don't get that missing home feeling when I'm gone.

I still live at home(cheaper)but it cant last forever and I don't want it to. It is very scary to think about being out on my own let alone not knowing anyone to ask for help should I need it. which brings me to the fact that I want to move to another country, so far I have decided I would like to live in england. the plan is to finish school (6 months) and then go over there for a week or so but that is if I find someone to show me around because I want to know what it would be like to live there not just see it, and should I like it the I would come home and work on getting everything situated for moving.I figure since I am a house painter now I can do that anywhere so should I not be able to get a job using my degree (computer networking) I have a fall back.

I am not set on england though, I kinda want to see the world and I know that I will regret it if I don't. I have put to much emphasis on material things in my life because as of right now it will make me happy for a bit but what I what I want is the experience of life.

If anyone has comments at all please tell me.